Its been a while

I know, its been a long while since I've posted the drama I call life, mostly because I've been living it instead of typing it.

My oncologist says I have to have surgery, I will believe him only because several others have said the same thing in the last seven months. Guess they know stuff. I just know I feel like hell, am getting a blubber gut and am so short fused I just may blow up before my surgery, which is on weds, 7/25. Do not expect one freaking peep outta me for at least two weeks, unless I am trying to get away from my mother, who is coming to take care of me. I'm kinda scared. for the family. lol

Worst case scenario, I will refuse chemo or radiation. I don't have to justify that decision to anyone for any reason. I live and I love every day that I am here, and for that I am eternally grateful.

Smile... I am :)